Yesterday I cried just about all day. I was a huge wreck. It was Sunday. We were all together. We had a lot to get done. I was weeping through most of it. And I must admit to being like that all weekend.
We moved into the 3rd of 3 rentals before we depart Sitka June 1. The last house was probably the worst place I have ever lived in. Actually...there is no proabably..IT WAS THE WORST PLACE EVER! Size was not the issue, It had the right amount of square footage...but the whole place was just SAD! It made me sad. It made all of us sad.
I will say that April has been probably the worst month in a long time..for all of us. My older girls are struggling and their hearts are being hurt by this whole moving situation and I struggle with a hurt heart for them. Middle school is a hard age...kids not being invited to parties from kids we considered good friends..all of a sudden. It all hurts. I did not expect some of this. So it can knock you down a little...
And you have to go back and look at the big picture. We came with 8 of us and we will leave with 8 of us. We have each other. We have not had much other family for 3 years and we tried to make up for that loss of family with friends..the Coast Guard is a small community that has often felt like family...but this time things have been different and we just need to adjust.
We all do the best we can..that is what I tell myself and my kids. When they feel heart broken over feeling like their friends have already forgotten them..I try and reassure us both that we all are doing the best we can...
And then I remind myself that I must always try and do my best for them too...