Sorry I have not been back for awhile...I was really busy feeling sorry for myself. That has taken up a lot of June so far, and if I'm honest I think it took over the end of May too...I realize we are halfway through June. I think I am all done. I hope I am. This little slump took FOREVER to get over.
I am not sure what brought it on...I could list what I think it was..
.fear of what will happen next year when we are going to be moving to WHO KNOWS WHERE, wanting that to happen sooner some days and never other days (super logical),
..... a very close friend leaving
..... a teenager whom I adore and hope she will one day adore me again,
....... being left behind on a trip Pete had to go on and we did not plan on me going but then when he was leaving I FELL APART about not going (again...super logical)
......fear of a summer full of rain and kids....
But last night right before going to mass I decided I was done..this is silly. And for whatever reason, at that moment, it worked,
....who cares where we are going...we will all be together...
.....I made a close friend here and it will happen again...
....my teenager does love me..duhh
.....I did not need to go on this trip, this time. We have a bigger picture..I just forgot that for a few days (even after he reminded me)
.... I get my kids..no sharing with school and the rain will be here NO MATTER WHAT!!!
And look at these pictures...this is where I live. After dinner, on a sunny night I get to go on a boat ride with a guy I have been married to for 19 years...who I still adore ...with children that adore us both. I get that...why waste my time...